Hi Chloe. I want to tell you how much your journal is helping me. I lost my husband of 26 years to cancer three months ago. He died unexpectedly and very quickly due to an adverse reaction to a round of chemo that ended up shutting down his kidneys. We faced his cancer with so much hope and options. His medical care was amazing. But this freak accident happened and I took him to the hospital on a Monday and he died that Saturday. It was and still is a shock. My person is gone and now I’m changed. I’m doing all the right things to get through this and reading your journey helps. Thank you. 🙏. Chris S
Hi Chris, thank you for you message today. I am so sorry you are living this nightmare, and for what I sure you and your husband endured. It really is unfair and it’s not how things should be. When people read my writing I feel in that way they are taking a moment to sit with me in my grief, I hope that when you read it gives you some small measure of that feeling too.
I just finished reading you newest writing. Yet, another phase of grief. All the realizations of how grief effects a person. Many deep thoughts, one doesn't normally think about on a day to day basis. Until, something like a death of a person who has impacted one's life in the most possible way....such as a deep love.
In the beginning of this read I was thinking the way in which you had written it, your feelings and thoughts reminded me of the powerful word, "HOPE". Hope gets a person through many things in our life. In different ways and experiences. Giving us something to hang on to, keeping our mind from wandering to a place or potential future we dare to imagine. Unfortunately, in some cases where hope has served it's purpose, when the time of true reality sets in, when all hope is lost.....we feel let down.
Now searching for new answers, feeling new emotions and our thoughts are different, they change. Not always for the worst but, and mostly for the best. Because, we now have to look at a different way to think of times to come, to look at things so we can manage and stay above water. To CARRY ON. To be HAPPY. Not loosing all the many great things that life has to offer in the future and the present.
This is what I see and believe. I suppose this is where the next stage of grief and mourning begin.
It's something I think, has to be.
So that one can heal to moving forward with the wonderful life God has given us. I'm sure at times it doesn't feel that way and the journey is so very difficult and hard.
I feel in a way....it is what has to happen to reach contentment and peace. To thankful God for All of our memories of a past life. To move forward and to write new chapters in our life.
Your writings always get me to thinking. And, make me look at things in ways I haven't. And, I know will someday serve a purpose in my own life. As I've mentioned in the more recent past I honestly believe this with all my being and all my heart, you only are not helping and healing yourself but, many others as well who find themselves at very similar crossroads.
THANK YOU CHLOE♥︎♥︎
This comes with much love ❤️
You and Raffa are always in my heart and thoughts,
Hi Chloe. I want to tell you how much your journal is helping me. I lost my husband of 26 years to cancer three months ago. He died unexpectedly and very quickly due to an adverse reaction to a round of chemo that ended up shutting down his kidneys. We faced his cancer with so much hope and options. His medical care was amazing. But this freak accident happened and I took him to the hospital on a Monday and he died that Saturday. It was and still is a shock. My person is gone and now I’m changed. I’m doing all the right things to get through this and reading your journey helps. Thank you. 🙏. Chris S
Hi Chris, thank you for you message today. I am so sorry you are living this nightmare, and for what I sure you and your husband endured. It really is unfair and it’s not how things should be. When people read my writing I feel in that way they are taking a moment to sit with me in my grief, I hope that when you read it gives you some small measure of that feeling too.
Dearest Chloe,
I just finished reading you newest writing. Yet, another phase of grief. All the realizations of how grief effects a person. Many deep thoughts, one doesn't normally think about on a day to day basis. Until, something like a death of a person who has impacted one's life in the most possible way....such as a deep love.
In the beginning of this read I was thinking the way in which you had written it, your feelings and thoughts reminded me of the powerful word, "HOPE". Hope gets a person through many things in our life. In different ways and experiences. Giving us something to hang on to, keeping our mind from wandering to a place or potential future we dare to imagine. Unfortunately, in some cases where hope has served it's purpose, when the time of true reality sets in, when all hope is lost.....we feel let down.
Now searching for new answers, feeling new emotions and our thoughts are different, they change. Not always for the worst but, and mostly for the best. Because, we now have to look at a different way to think of times to come, to look at things so we can manage and stay above water. To CARRY ON. To be HAPPY. Not loosing all the many great things that life has to offer in the future and the present.
This is what I see and believe. I suppose this is where the next stage of grief and mourning begin.
It's something I think, has to be.
So that one can heal to moving forward with the wonderful life God has given us. I'm sure at times it doesn't feel that way and the journey is so very difficult and hard.
I feel in a way....it is what has to happen to reach contentment and peace. To thankful God for All of our memories of a past life. To move forward and to write new chapters in our life.
Your writings always get me to thinking. And, make me look at things in ways I haven't. And, I know will someday serve a purpose in my own life. As I've mentioned in the more recent past I honestly believe this with all my being and all my heart, you only are not helping and healing yourself but, many others as well who find themselves at very similar crossroads.
THANK YOU CHLOE♥︎♥︎
This comes with much love ❤️
You and Raffa are always in my heart and thoughts,
♡Aunt Sandra♡
Thank you for reading and sharing all this with me, Aunt Sandra 🤍